im so BLOODY PISSED!!! arghs! duno wad u guys wan lar.

pple hav their limits. u can joke n fool around. but pls jus noe ur limits. stm im really angry. can u see it? maybe u dun. mayb im jus over-reacting. stm i get really hurt. i jus duno why u treat me in this way. is this going to last for 2 years? haixxx.



guess im jus really down today. im so tired of everything. feel like jus throwing everything behind me. feel like jus stopping of going on with this kind of life. feel like jus starting over my life afresh. feel jus like crying out loud.

hate it all.

posted by pam @ 10:21 PM 0 comments

Inside Your Heaven Carrie Underwood

I've been down, now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation comin' around
This is right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you, I'm alive
You're all I've got, you lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you're breathing in of soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars line up, the wrong becomes undone
Naturally my soul surrenders, the sun and moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains form I'll still be here
Holding you until the day I die

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away

I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you're breathing in of soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven


this lyrics is meaningful ehs. (:


i got LOTS to update.

Friday - after school, jerica n i decided to go town to study. she didnt tell me that she asked ridz along. hahas! wad a pleasant surprise. we went to dome to drink coffee again. thanks for the treat again. feel so bad. always hav to treat us. anyways. he left at ard 6. den we went to makan at long john's where we saw sme1. it was quite shocking to me. so qiao lar.

Saturday - me. weilin. melissa. anita. ee teng. zhi yan plan to meet at admirialty mrt station at 8.15am. ee teng was super late so we were rushing to woodlands ring sec. den when we walked into the sch, the teacher-in-charge called me so i told him we were at the canteen. den he said, "wad canteen??" i realised he wasnt meeting us in his sch but at PASIR RIS PARK. i was super super shocked lar. we were woodlands n they are at pasir ris. hahas! no choice had to take cab down. heng he was willing to pay for us. it was not my fault lar. i rly had no clue abt meeting at the park itself. hahas! the whole experience at the mangrove is refreshing. first time mah. other than the sticky mud, i think it's okay lar. not much insects around. hope we hav a good time on sept 10.

anyways. huiying came to my hse for a short while cuz she kana locked out of hse. haha! i was slping when she called. heng i felt the vibration. yupP. great talkin to her. (: at night, i went with my family to causeway point. wanted to change my hp there. but found out forget to bring student pass. arghss! so angry with myself.

it's super late now. 2.36am. haha! i jus finished typing my EOM. yays! sorta anyhow write de. i better go slp now. im starting to hear some sounds. =/

i felt weird today. an undescribeable feeling. hmm. slp dreams everyone. ((:

posted by pam @ 2:40 AM 0 comments

he looks sad. duno if he's okie. seriously hope he's alright. (:

hmm. i think i these few days got serious PMS. hahas! some time i get so irritated over the slightest n stupidest thing. some times i get so happiie. sorry to unlucky ones whom i get irritated with ahs. (esp to my mei! sorry!) actually nowadays i get irritated over a lot of things. but i REN. stm im smiling happily but in actual fact, im not too happiie. this will only last a period of time. hahas.

im talking to sharon now. oh man. i miss her damn much. was hopiing to see her real soon. but guess we can only meet her during sept hols. RON, take care of urself ehs. rmb i will help u curse them for u. how can they bully u! hahas! hav fun in malaysia ehs. (:

CASS! i MISS U TOO! hope to see u nxt week ehs. hahas.

i planned to slp once i got home de. but now seems like i cant again. hahas. bussy chatting away again! hmm. tml going to study with jerica! koon ah. hope u join us k? :)

posted by pam @ 6:44 PM 0 comments

hey krysie! i read ur blog. hmm. duno if u still feeling down. but jus wana let u know tat unlucky things sure bound to happen in our lives de. rem the time when im super duper unlucky too? ya. it all depends on how we look at it. i know it's difficult to be happiie when things arent the way u wan them to be. but we jus hav to make the best out of things k. jus like wad u told me the other time. ming tian hui geng hao de. hopefully u will be back to ur old self tml at cca. take care ya. cheers! :))

today was our pw oral presentation. hmm. i was so scared. hahas. but so glad it is all over. anyways. ser kun, i duno if u still feeling down anot. on sat, u dun look like ur usual self too. must cheer up k. mayb u're jus feeling tired by those late nites. must take care of urself. once again, u ARE a great leader. =D

hmm. wana type some more de. but thinkin tat only left 42 (i think) days to promos, i better buck up n stop using comp le. arghhs! so addicted to it.

this sat still haf to go to recce the sungei loyang with some innova jc students for a mangrove swamp cleanup in sept hols. i tot i fully utilise my weekend. but now seems like i cant le. but hope it wld be fun ba. hahas.

take care everyone :) [n huiying, if u still feeling down, cheer up too kaes.]

posted by pam @ 9:38 PM 0 comments

yuPs. i quite some time nv update le. anyways. rmb the chinese compo i wrote abt? the one abt zheng za? yupps. my teacher read it out in class. OMG! it was so gan gai. but nvm. it was over. the story has ended long ago. hahas. :)

oyah! the school doesnt allow interact club to set up a stall to sell slippers imported frm japan. so ANGRY lor. made me made some nus pple waited so long for a negative answer. it wld be so fun to sell slippers lor. but the sch doesnt allow us. haixx.

weds will be my student's eng oral. valeriie, must JIA YOU k. jus put in ur best effort. u can do it de. dun be afraid. BEST OF LUCK! :)) tml is ur bday too. so wish ya happiie birthday. dun be too stress up for o lvls ehs. it will be over soon. hope u hav real fun tml :)

did u guys see my photos in the front page?? if there's no picture of u, dun fret ya? i will try to change them regularly. i still hav lotsa pictures with me.

gotta prepare for my pw oral presentation tml. take care all! =P

posted by pam @ 9:09 PM 0 comments

i changed new blog skin le. this one nicer?? hahas. i love those 2 characters. soo sweet. :) but u guys, dun misunderstand k. im NOT in any r/s.

anyways. weekend finally here le. yays! today after school jerica n i went to town. again! hahas. i drank bubble tea @ heeren again. koon, dun scold me ahs. hahas! yupps. shop around b4 going home.

jerica ahs. although i duno wad happen to u, but hope u're alright le kaes. move on & lead the life tat u wan to live =D

im gonna put all my photos heree real soon. using paint software. keep out a lookout for tat k ppl. LOL.

im a good mood today :))

posted by pam @ 1:18 AM 0 comments

yesterday

after the national celebrations in sch,
we met up with huiying.
it's really been a longg time since we met.
hmm. glad we met up.
we may have drifted apart.
but we're still great frens. :)
went home quite early.
duno why felt so shagged after goin to j8.
maybe was the crowd bahs.

today - National Day

i spent the whole of National Day doing pw.
hahas. kinda pathetic ehs.
but im glad we managed to finish our wr.
i asked ser kun to ask the rest to wear red n white.
in the end, only clarence n him wore red. =x
hahas. i wore pink. subset of red ba. hahas.
although it was kinda sad spending such a holiday doing pw,
i didnt mind at all.
cuz i love u guys' company.
ur lame jokes really make me happier.
we took photos with my monkie carrying the national flag.
hahas.
reached home at abt 8pm to catch the finale parade.



anyways, i was talkin to chin hao on sat night.
this was the conversation:
Disappointment. says:
yeah...
Disappointment. says:
he lost summore dat loves him..
Disappointment. says:
but u onli lost summore dat dun treasure u...
Disappointment. says:
so he stil lose out
Disappointment. says:
haha

hmms. quite meaningful ritee?
hahas. thanks for kai-ing dao me hor.
chin hao, u must be happiee too kaes.
zhu fu ni. :)


argh! the gp essay driving me nuts.
i have been stuck to my comp for hours
n found out i wrote wrongly le.
heng, kuan yan told me how to write le.
thanks ah.
tml morning still gotta give tuition.
duno if i can wake up anot.
hahas.


anyways. school reopening soon le.
hope everything will be okay.
=D

posted by pam @ 2:06 AM 0 comments

im soo damn tired larr.
head hurting like crazyy.
eyes closing any minute soon.
im still stuck to the laptop.
trying to finish my pw stuffs.
duno wad im doing lorr.
weird weird de.
arghhhhs.
complete waste of time lahhs.
my msn making me so pissed off now.
keep logging off by itself every 5 mins or so.
damnnn.
so frustrating lahh.


guess im jus in a badd mood.
=/

posted by pam @ 11:44 PM 0 comments

im still sickk.
arghhs.
the tutpid fever still haven subside yet.
plus got this v bad flu.
so jialat tat i hav no choice but to use toilet paper.
so pai sei mann.
even mdm ong said i waste paper.
hahas!

today went to kovan's mac to do homewrk.
b4 tat i pei jerica to collect her specs.
i found out the contact lens there was only
$180 for permanent w agtimanism (duno correct anot)
compared w $300 tat i was offered in hougang.
so cheap lorr.
hahas!

anyways.
i got a REAL shock today.
my nightmare really came true after all.
nearly died of shock. =x
hopee everything is alright le.
:)

posted by pam @ 8:51 PM 0 comments